You never know

According to the newspaper obit, this soldier’s one true ambition was to become a writer.

He took four years of Latin in high school to become a better writer, and he had had a number of pieces published in the school’s literary magazine.

He planned to attend college and major in English. He thought he might be able to teach on the side until he could get himself established in print.

Somehow after high school graduation he ended up enlisting in the Army National Guard. He held the rank of private when he died.

His high school friends described him as quiet and polite. He was known for thinking outside of the box, and always had a ready smile.

According to his medical record, with the exception of a minor forearm fracture incurred in boyhood, he was only seen in the office for annual physical examinations; and those became less frequent as he got older.

There was never a hint of depression, never any inclination toward self-destructive behavior. When the news broke, that was why no one could believe that the cause of death was a self-inflicted gunshot wound.

Vita incerta, mors certissima — an ironic epitaph for a young gifted writer with promising talent.

You just never know about such things, I muse, as I gently close the medical record on my desk.

Sculpted in Stone

“It’s such a lovely summer afternoon. Let’s take the dog out for a walk down by the river.”

Reluctantly, I put my book aside, search for my battered felt hat and meet my wife outside on the driveway. Leashed, the dog is already panting in the afternoon heat.

We stroll down the street and cross the bridge to Old Hartford Avenue past the newly christened Old Stone Village—refurbished historic houses converted into a condominium complex. Today there is an open house, and we stop to chat with the realtor. He shows us one of the units for sale and hands us a card.

On the way back we hop the guardrail and descend to the river. A multitude of cedar waxwings dart about above the water, feeding on the latest hatch of insects. I point out their field marking—the yellow edge of the tail—to my wife.

We pick our way along the bank to the base of the old bridge abutment. Great redstone rocks are strewn over the steep slope. “There must have been a retaining wall here at one time. It may have been washed away in the flood,” I muse.

My wife stoops to pick up a rock—a much smaller stone, smooth and grey with two flat surfaces and irregular edges. “This looks like my grandfather’s whetstone that I brought back from Spain,” she says.

“It does look similar,” I agree. “It reminds me of those stones for sale in the gift shop at the Florence Griswold House.” We had trekked down to Old Lyme to view the collection of paintings by American tonalists and impressionists the day before.

“I didn’t notice them. Do you think anyone will mind if I take this one home?”

“A rock is a rock,” I smile. “Finders keepers.”

We push up the steep slope and cross the barrier onto the street. My wife hands me the rock to carry. I turn the stone over in my hands, feeling its smooth coldness. Uncut, yet having two flat faces, it reminds me of headstones in the cemetery on the hill.

“When I was in high school, there was a boy two years behind me who used to sculpt stone like this one,” I say. “He had a wild head of hair, and always kept to himself.”

“What happened to him?”

“Academically, he came to nothing—a hopeless case. But artistically—” I pause to remember, “the stones he sculpted were quite beautiful: round and smooth with clean curved lines. They were on display in the art room. It was a pleasure to turn them over in your hand.”

“So, did he become a great artist?”

I stop and stroke the stone again, feeling its cold smoothness in my hand.

“No. He never graduated high school. They found him one day with a bullet in his brain—self-inflicted gunshot wound. His other hand cradled a stone he had been sculpting—smooth and grey with clean curved lines.”

My wife pulls the dog up short on the leash. “Why did he do it?”

“No one knew. He came from a large family; his parents had split up. Like a lot of other young impressionable artists, the world killed him, I suppose.”

We retrace our steps across the bridge. I cradle the stone in my hand and pause to watch the waxwings dancing above the water in the late afternoon light.

A Poet Gets His Final Wish

Piergiorgio Welby, the Italian poet who suffered from muscular dystrophy for 40 years, had his final wish granted when Dr. Mario Riccio, an anesthesiologist, sedated Mr. Welby and removed the artificial life support that had been keeping him alive for the last three months.

“The case of Piergiorgio Welby is not a case of euthanasia,” Dr Riccio stated. “It’s a case of refusing treatment.” According to the doctor, such cases happen every day—quietly, without the public attention that Welby’s case had received.

The New York Times (December 22, 2006) reported that Italian law “does not allow anyone to assist in a death, even by consent. Two recent legal decisions on Mr. Welby’s case questioned the legality of a doctor detaching life support, while upholding Mr. Welby’s right to decline treatment.”

Emma Bonino, a leader in the Radical Party, of which Mr. Welby was a member, said: “Piergiorgio Welby did not invent a phenomenon. He gave a voice to a reality — voice, body, suffering — to a reality that exists, and to which it is more simple, if more cruel, to close one’s eyes.”

While I think that it’s morally wrong to willfully take the life of another human being, I don’t pretend to be able to speak for the individual patient who finds himself in that dilemma. As the Galician quadriplegic Ramón Sampedro wrote in Cartas desde el infierno (Letters from Hell): “I don’t speak for all quadriplegics. I speak for myself — Ramón Sampedro.”

As I wrote in my review of Mar Adentro (The Sea Inside): “The sea that rages deep within the soul touches upon that universal profound question of what constitutes a human life. For Ramón Sampedro the answer becomes clear. But for many viewers the answer will remain elusively hidden in the heart. Perhaps none of us can know it truly before his or her time.”

Petitioning for the Right to Die

Today’s New York Times (December 20, 2006) carried an article highlighting the cause célèbre of Piergiorgio Welby, an Italian poet, now bedridden and ventilator-dependent after suffering with muscular dystrophy for 40 years. Mr. Welby has petitioned the Italian government to allow him to end his life. “I find the idea of dying horrible,” Mr. Welby says, “but what is left to me is no longer a life.”

An Italian court has denied legal permission for a doctor to sedate Mr. Welby and remove him from his respirator. He says he is not seeking to commit suicide, but to remove himself from medical treatment he does not want. “What is natural about a body kept biologically functional with the help of artificial respirators, artificial feed, artificial hydration, artificial intestinal emptying, of death artificially postponed?” Mr. Welby has written.

“If it is done privately, there would be a way to accommodate his desire to discontinue life support as a burdensome therapy,” said Dr. Myles Sheehan, a Jesuit priest and physician at Loyola University Medical Center in Chicago. “But if it is done publicly, it’s a big mess, because of the direct link to euthanasia.” Dr. Sheehan is an expert on ethical issues surrounding euthanasia.

Welby’s book, Let Me Die, brings to mind another book, Cartas desde el infierno (Letters from Hell), written by Ramón Sampedro, a Galician quadriplegic sailor who petitioned the Spanish government to permit him to end his life. Sampedro ended up committing suicide with the help of a friend. His story is told in the motion picture Mar Adentro (The Sea Inside), which I reviewed in the Summer 2005 issue of Cell2Soul. Interested readers can access my review here.