Trudging toward the river

I stand in the snow, my boots buried in white. The intense mid-morning sunlight makes me squint behind dark lenses. I turn and look back at the expanse of snow over which I’ve come. My tracks pockmark the trail broken by some unknown snowshoer days before. The air is cold this morning, but the sun has softened the snow. I break through the glazed surface with each step. Every so many steps I stop to cough. It’s hard going through the deep snow in this deserted park.

The river lies up ahead, just around the bend in the trail. It won’t be long before I reach the bank, only a short distance away. Once again I stop and cough, then wipe my mouth with the sleeve of my coat. Keep going, I tell myself. Don’t stop now. Once again I look over my shoulder. It’s a long way back to the dirt road at the park entrance. I take a deep breath and trudge on.

Finally, I round the bend. The river lies ahead, shimmering through last year’s red briers along the bank. The edges have iced up. Out in the center water flows quietly beneath the over-arching blue sky. Bare trees stand along the bank in the distance. My eyes survey the scene, then stop. There, on a distant branch halfway up the trunk, rests a dense dark mass, accentuated with an unmistakable dab of white.

I lift the glasses from my nose and strain to focus through the cold. My eyes water and the image blurs. I reach into my pocket for the handkerchief that is always there. I wipe my eyes and replace the glasses on my face. The form waxes and wanes.

When I raise my hand to my mouth to stifle a cough, the black form drops from the branch. Two long lines shoot out from the bulk, pivoting on an invisible point. Suddenly, in this graceful spiral of descent the lines become wings, the dab of white becomes a head. The wings beat down, and as the bird rises against the grey backdrop of naked tree trunks, I see the white triangular tail flare. A few strokes more and the thin silhouette fades into the blue sky.

I pull my shoulders back and stand up straight. I stuff the wrinkled handkerchief into my pocket and thrust my fingers into the glove. I lift one foot, shake off the snow and take another step. It won’t be long now.

Soon I will reach the river.

"Winter River" 2013 © Brian T. Maurer

“Winter River” 2013 © Brian T. Maurer

Sound and fury

Ganoga Falls, Ricketts Glen, ©2012

We stood on the narrow trail at the base of the falls in the glen. Nearly one hundred feet above our heads, white water cascaded down the terraced face of the rock, churning the turbulent pool below. The deafening sound of the cataract drowned out all other sounds in the forest. Standing there breathing in the cool moist air, we could almost convince ourselves that we were the last remnant of a long-forgotten race chosen to view this pristine wilderness.

After a hiatus of four years we had come to hike the Falls Trail at Ricketts Glen once again. Except for our compact campsite, the rest of the grounds remained deserted. It was too early in the season; the hoards of summer people had not yet descended upon the lake and the land. We had glimpsed only a small herd of deer — a doe and two of her young — gliding silently through the trees the evening before.

As we resumed our descent through the ravine, two hikers and their dog approached from below. We paused briefly to exchange a greeting, then continued on our way.

“They probably were thinking the same thing that we were thinking,” I whispered to my friend. “How dare someone else invade the privacy of this sanctuary!”

“They looked like seasoned hikers,” my friend replied. “You could tell from the way they were dressed and the way they handled themselves along the path.”

We walked on in Indian time, pausing whenever we wished to view the stream, the forest flora or the rock formations hewn by the pounding water down through the millennia. I pointed out a stand of red trillium and noted yellow and white violets clinging to moss-covered rocks along the trail.

At Waters Meet we read the bronze plaque which proclaims the designation of the Glens as a registered natural lankmark under the provisions of the Historic Sites Act of August 21, 1935. From the trail below the wooden foot bridge at the confluence that forms Kitchen Creek you can view the two streams that descend through Ganoga Glen and Glen Leigh. My friend pointed out the compass chiseled into a flat rock as we prepared to ascend the Glen Leigh Trail.

Compass Points, Waters Meet, ©2012

Further along close to the summit we encountered the two hikers that we had met during our descent. This time we stopped on one of the wooden foot bridges to chat. The man and his son-in-law had been hiking the Falls Trail loop every Thursday for the last several years. They started shortly after the man had a stent put in one of his coronary arteries. “I had what they call a cardiac event,” he chuckled. “I can tell you, it wasn’t indigestion.”

My friend stooped to stroke their dog, a pit bull bitch. “She’s really very mellow,” the son-in-law said, “although she can be temperamental at times.”

“Do you walk the trail year round?” I asked the old man.

“Year in, year out,” he said. “We’ve done it in the middle of winter with crampons when the trail was icy, and nearly went over the edge at Ganoga Falls.”

“You don’t say!”

“Thankfully, it was a short drop to the switchback below. But we had to go back up for the dog — she slipped her collar and wouldn’t budge.”

“Lucky for you — that’s quite a drop into the ravine there.”

“We saw another fellow, a line worker from North Dakota who had come east after the snow storm last fall to help restore power. He was sitting on the wooden bench down at Waters Meet, white-faced and wearing crampons. He told us he had gone over the side.”

“You know the Lake Rose oil scam story?” the old man asked. We shook our heads. “Lake Rose, that’s the dry lake bed up at Ganoga trailhead. Seems one time a fellow found signs of oil there. Convinced any number of investors to chip in to drill. Later they discovered the fellow in Canada — he had absconded with the investment funds,” he chuckled.

We shook hands all round and parted ways. “Be careful going down, the stone steps are slippery from the morning drizzle.”

Stone Steps, Ricketts Glen, ©2012

“That’s when I get the ski pole out of my knapsack,” the old man said.

“I knew I wasn’t wrong about them,” my friend said further up the trail. “You can always tell woodsmen when you see them.”

We had sandwiches for a late lunch back at camp, then walked down to look at the lake. Far out on the grey water you could make out the form of a goose. A pair of mallards rested among the green tufts of water grass near the shore.

"Lake Jean" 2012 © Thomas A. Doty

We looked at the overcast sky. “So far the weather’s cooperated.”

“It might rain yet,” my friend said.

It held off until late evening. The skies opened up shortly after we crawled into the tent. I fell asleep listening to the sound of the rain on the tent fly. It was good to be curled up in my sleeping bag, warm and dry.

The sound of high winds woke me in the middle of the night. I pulled my stocking cap above my ears and listened to the sound of the rushing wind in the treetops. The rain had stopped, but the wind continued to gust periodically through the night.

We arose at first light to find the dining fly demolished. The wind had lifted it up as though it were a toy parachute, pulling the stakes out of the ground. Paraphernalia lay strewn about. We made a survey and found a missing tea towel under the collapsed tarp.

We heated some water on the camp stove for tea and oatmeal, then burned the remaining hickory in the fire ring. It was the best fire of the three-day excursion. As we doused the coals, a plume of heavy smoke rose from the pit.

A few snowflakes stung our faces before we climbed in our cars and headed out. Overhead, the cold wind still blew steadily in the trees.

Glen Leigh, Ricketts Glen, ©2012

Easter Vigil

Not her usual peppy self
The puppy lags behind on leash.
Halfway out the morning trek
She squats: a gush of slimy blood.

That afternoon we set out,
The dog remains behind,
Lying in her corner bed,
Eyes half glazed, belly rumbling.

We cross the concrete bridge,
Bushwack through the woods,
Wander along an ancient bluff
Above the rushing river.

We find a forest trail,
Follow it up a steep incline,
March down a dirt path
Into an unknown ravine.

I recognize finally the brook.
The blue-blazed trail we sought
Leads us up the ridge
And to the cliffs beyond.

I point out the old railroad bed,
Where formerly it snaked through town,
The school, the mill, the pub,
Our house tucked beneath the pines.

The wind bites hard,
Watering our eyes.
We turn and descend
Back through the forest.

Near the river’s edge
Without warning they appear:
Hoards of yellow parasols
Among the mottled green:

Trout lilies, nearly a month early.
Spring beauties, fairy spuds,
A stand of whit squirrel corn,
Seasonably out of season.

Back home, from her sick-bed,
At the sound of footsteps,
Cold-nosed, the pup is risen
To dance and bark our return.

2012 © Brian T. Maurer

Thin Places

Together we parse the woodland trail
Past stands of ancient evergreens
Through patches of ice-melt mud,
Bearing right at the fork.
A quickened pace across the creek,
Then up the sandy rise
To Spring Pond.

A fallen pine rests on its side,
An empty cabin slumps.
Geese bleat over still water.

Blue blazed trees lead us to
An open yellow meadow,
The etched path arcs through
Last summer’s grassy remnants.

A sudden shrill drumming
Sounds in the forest.
Silence ensues;
We wait and listen.
Drumming cracks the air again,
Echoes through our amphitheater,
This hallowed forest glen.

Copyright 2012 © Brian T. Maurer

"Spring Pond" 2012 © Brian T. Maurer

A woodland walk

“Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth.”

—Robert Frost, The Road Not Taken

I stood at the edge of the wood near the bottom of the rise, leaning against my walking stick. Directly ahead the trail continued to ascend the rocky slope along the ridge, while below, off to the left, branches and debris from last October’s winter storm blocked the leaf-strewn path.  After a moment’s reflection I took up the walking stick in hand and tramped down through the leaves.

At the bottom I found the blue blaze marks and proceeded west along the path parallel to the ridge trail. Many of the fallen limbs had been cut up and kicked off to the side. In a few spots new trail had been blazed around extensive clusters of debris. Eventually, I stepped out of the woods onto the dirt road at the power line cut.

Here I had another decision to make: continue on into the woods or follow the dirt road to the crest. Moments later I stepped into the woods again and continued along the path.

At the bottom of the hollow I found the remnant of a trail that crossed the stream and led directly up the rise. Many times I had followed this straight stretch of trail, striding up the natural stone steps. It soon became apparent that the former trail was impassable: a jungle of fallen trunks and contorted branches blocked the way.

I turned right and followed an improvised path across the slope to where it doubled back through the forest. Back and forth I followed the switchbacks, crisscrossing the old straight trail.

Near the top of the rise, off to the right, a vernal pool lay frozen in the forest. I paused at its edge and stared down into the black ice. Patches of blue sky silhouetted the wispy tops of stark trees in this cracked icy mirror.

It was a short ascent to the ridge. I stood on the rocky outcropping and looked out over the expansive valley at my feet, shading my eyes from the intense afternoon sun. A cold wind cut my cheek.

Shortly, I turned and disappeared back into the forest.

Of time and the river

We stood on the bluff, looking east over the town that lay at our feet.

It was a clear November day, unseasonably warm. You could make out the red brick many-windowed building on the square, catty-cornered from the grey granite slate-roofed structure, both signature edifices in this historic Pennsylvania town. The main street was lined with maples, now scarlet in their late fall foliage.

The river made its wide blue arc, skirting the grid of streets to the south. Two hawks soared in great circles on the air currents overhead. Off in the distance, beyond a plume of smoke, you could see the bridge and the white ribbon of highway going up into the mountains of New York.


Although we had been getting together for an afternoon at least once a year over the past decade, this was the first time we had hiked to the Knob for a panoramic view of the town. The waitress at the inn had afforded us directions: head south across the old concrete bridge, turn off into the cemetery and drive to the trailhead at the top of the hill.

We paused to inspect the metal structure lying on the ground at the bluff: a rusted cross constructed from steel pipe wired to a galvanized steel star — the town’s signature holiday decoration, erected with colored lights every Christmas.

We retraced our steps down the steep leaf-covered trail to the car and headed back to the inn for a round of Guinness and an extended dinner by the fire in the great room. We talked medicine, we talked work. We talked family, we talked about writers and the book we had both read. Four hours is not a long time for conversation over a meal at an inn with a good friend that you only get to see once or twice a year.

Eventually, darkness descended over the town. Here in the east it comes early after the timepieces are turned back for winter. Where my friend lives and works, time is untouched — the clocks are let alone.

We ambled to our cars along one of the back streets. My friend would traverse the extended detour back down through the gap in the darkness, groping toward Bethlehem, while I followed the moon, nearly full, across the dark river and up into the black mountains beyond.

Revisiting Walden

The day dawned to overcast skies. I grabbed my raingear from the knapsack and headed out to the rendezvous site. Only a handful of people showed up. The leader arrived as the first raindrops started to fall. Shortly, a bolt of lightning followed by a brisk thunderclap canceled our early morning excursion to the great blue heron rookery. “Too risky,” the leader said. “Maybe we’ll try to work it in to the nature walk tomorrow morning.”

I headed back to the hotel, then decided to drive out to have a look at the pond instead. It was early, it was raining; I was certain that no one else would be there.

Cars lined the side of the road along Route 126. There was not a space to be had in the small lot at the Shop. I pulled into the unmarked driveway and parked by the house at the end. Barbara was in her kitchen, busy with breakfast preparations for her house guests. She greeted me at the door.

“Well, look who’s here. Come in, come in! Sit down; how about a cup of coffee? You’re just in time for breakfast.”

“I’ll take the coffee but I have to take a rain check on breakfast,” I said. “I just ate.”

“Ah, you should’ve let me know you were coming.”

I explained about the rain and the canceled birding excursion. “They’re calling for severe thundershowers,” she told me. “Too bad the weather isn’t cooperating.”

I looked out the window. “If it doesn’t downpour, I thought I might try a walk around the pond. Could I leave my car here for an hour?”

“Certainly. You need a refill on the coffee before you go?”

“No, thanks; I’m fine.” I handed her the empty cup.

“Be sure to stop by again before the end of the weekend.”

I stepped out into the drizzle and pulled the hood of my raincoat over my head. I was glad I had thought to put on the rain pants. I might roast inside the plastic, but I wouldn’t get soaked from the rain.

A lone swimmer toweled off near the stone wall as I descended the long concrete stairway. The water table was high this year; only a short stretch of sandy beach remained below the bathhouse.

I struck out along the north shore, heading west along the ancient path now bounded by wire fencing on either side. Periodically, I passed a break that allowed direct descent to the water on large natural stone steps. Mist was rising from the surface of the water, stirred by a slight morning breeze.

The sandbar at the entrance to Thoreau’s cove lay submerged in the grey-green water. As I paused on the newly constructed wooden bridge to survey Wyman meadow, now flooded, its surface scattered with islands of lily pads, a train sounded in the distance. I turned to glimpse it rolling by through a break in the trees at the southwest corner of the pond.

A short stretch brought me to the house site, where I stepped through the two granite pillars to read the inscription on the stone that marked the location of Thoreau’s chimney.

From there I walked back to the water’s edge and sauntered south along the cove. Out in the water a few yards from shore a lone kingbird perched on the top branches of an alder, preening its breast.

Further along the trail near ice cove I found a stand of four granite markers of varying heights buried in the forest floor. A bit beyond them I passed a grey-haired man standing knee-deep in the water tending his fishing lines. By his single word of greeting — Maanin’ — I judged him to be a New England native.

I climbed the bank and paused by the railway, looking first south and then north to Concord. I marveled at the clean glistening steel rails winding off into the distance. Here I stood in a moment of time, a mere passerby reflecting on the distance I had traveled and the trek that lay ahead.

I turned west and ambled along the trail, pausing by a dark pool adjacent to little cove. Tiny rings dappled its surface above a submerged log — ephemeral footprints of water striders. Just ahead I stopped to examine a stand of spotted wintergreen on the moss-carpeted forest floor, each plant bearing a tiny stalk of white nodding bell-like flowers.

Two pairs of mallard ducks paddled about in long cove. Each in turn dipped its bill down into the clear Walden water. I thought of Thoreau and the dipper which two visitors had borrowed to get a drink from the pond and never returned.

My eye caught site of several low bushes along the trail near the southwest section of trail. I stooped low to search along the leafy stems and found one solitary round green berry, happy to have satisfied my curiosity that the low-bush blueberry still resides in Concord.

The eye of the thrush

The morning sun throws its light across the tops of the distant pines, turning their tufts a brilliant green against the grey backlit sky. Shafts of sharp light stretch across the expanse of back yard. The flower beds lie freshly edged, their black earth turned up to face the sky.

The same wind that stirs the branches of the distant pines stirs something in me as well. I pull on my boots, grab my old felt hat and binoculars and step outside. The morning air is fresh after yesterday’s soaking rain.

I head out toward the far hills, striding down the street past an idling car. Inside a man bows his head, thumbs flying across the key pad of his cell phone.

Just up the street the call of a phoebe resonates through the crisp morning air. He sits on an overhead wire that leads to the house where the young woman with lymphoma lives.  A light still burns in the vestibule.

Slowly, I track the muddy leaf-strewn path that leads up the hill and around the bend. Spotted violets dot the edge of the trail, shivering in the early morning air.

At the top of the hill near the concrete water tank I turn left and follow the rain-soaked path up the gradual incline of the old carriage road. I pause at the first bend to look out at the stand of decayed hemlocks, their stark broken branches bleached white in the sun.

Two additional switchbacks and I step onto the rock that juts out at the end of the overlook. I train the binoculars on the far ridges, blue across the river valley, filled with mists.

Further along, the rocks lie covered with moss, wet with dew. The cut where the power lines cross the mountain provides a view of the city to the southeast and the Barndoor Hills to the northwest.

Once more I enter the woods, steadying the binoculars to keep them from bouncing back and forth against my chest, lost in thought.

Suddenly up ahead, a brown flash darts across the path. Stock still I stand, feet planted firmly on the small outcropping of traprock. Ten yards before my eyes a small brown bird perches on the bare branch of a birch tree.

Motionless we stand, regarding one another. The bird boasts a limpid eye ringed in white, a speckled buff breast, a white throat and cinnamon rump. He chortles a brief burst, clearing his throat. Silently I wait. Again and again the bird chortles, several times over the ensuing minute, then drops to the ground among the leaves.

I ease a few steps forward, binoculars at the ready; but the bird flits down through the brush and into the forest.

Within the hour I descend the mountain to the sound of cars whizzing down the main road, commuters on their way to work.

Back home I kick off my muddy boots, settle my old felt hat on the rack, and retire my binoculars to their case, carefully wrapping the cinnamon brown leather strap around the center of the twin eye pieces ringed white with tear salt from four decades of use.

Christmas Day, 2010: A magical moment

I made French toast from the leftover loaf of coarse bread on Christmas morning.  Everyone gathered in the kitchen and took turns eating at the small table as the toast came out of the skillets, thick and hot and golden brown.

Afterward we opened the gifts.  This year there were useful and useless presents—garments and books, gift cards and money, toys and electronic devices.  I retrieved A Child’s Christmas in Wales from the small marble-topped table in the parlor and read Thomas’s section on the presents.  When I got to the part about the “celluloid duck that made, when you pressed it, a most unducklike sound, a mewing moo that an ambitious cat might make who wished to be a cow,” my granddaughter hugged her stuffed slice of bacon toy to make it say “I’m bacon!” and everybody laughed.

We redd up the boxes and the wrappings and then I took the dog out for a walk up along the ridge to the power line cut where you can look out over the wide expanse of the valley.  Off to the northeast the Barndoor Hills lay nestled in at the base of the far ridges.

The dog and I stood for a moment surveying the scene when a cacophony drifted in from across the valley.  Louder and louder came the cries.  Breathlessly I studied the far ridge line, which began to undulate, as though inked in by an unseen hand in real time.  Then suddenly the whole line lifted up against the backdrop of the overcast sky.  Black dots appeared along the now broken line as bleating and honking reached a deafening crescendo in the cold air.

Closer and closer they came, companies and battalions of geese flying in formation, rising up across the grey sky, a massive ornithological sortie.  There must have been three or four hundred, perhaps more.  In a moment the sky was filled with the deafening cries of geese as they passed overhead.

The dog and I stood stock still with our eyes raised.

A few breathless moments more and the entire gaggle had disappeared over the second ridge to the south, leaving no trace but an occasional stray bleat.

It was only after the last straggler had gone that I realized my heart was in my throat.