Infinite wonder

The boy, who is just 11 years old, sits on the exam table in his briefs. According to my afternoon schedule, he is here for his annual physical exam.

“Did you drive here yourself?” I ask him with the hint of a smile.

“Naw, my dad’s in the waiting room. He thought I could do this on my own.”

“And what do you think?”

He shrugs his shoulders. “Fine with me,” he says.

I leaf through his chart. “What grade are you in this year?” I ask him.

“Fifth,” he says.

“And how is school going?”

He thinks a moment and then says, “Good. I’m having a good year. I like my classes, especially science.”

“Good for you!” I offer a word of encouragement. “What do you like to do for fun when you’re not in school?”

“Well, I like to read and draw and ride my bike. Sometimes I like to go outside and look up at the stars.”

Suddenly, I’m intrigued. “What interests you about the stars?”

“We’re studying space in science. They’re teaching us about the solar system and the planets. But mostly I just like to look at the stars. Some are brighter than others. There’s this one star — at least I think it’s a star — that I can see outside my window when I’m lying in bed. I always look for that one.”

“Ah,” I say, “do you know how to tell the difference between a star and a planet? No? Well, a star emits its own light, like the sun, so it twinkles in the night sky. A planet, on the other hand, reflects light, like the moon, so it doesn’t twinkle. Planets have a steady light, even though they might look brighter than a star.”

“Wow, that’s cool! I’m going to check that out tonight.”

“You do that,” I say. “And now I guess we should do your physical exam and check you out.”

The exam is normal. He is a healthy boy, still full of wonder. As I fill out his exam form, I smile to myself, pleased that such a boy has yet to discover the Hubble photographs of deep space, Whitman’s When I Heard the Learn’d Astronomer or even descriptively rich lines from Joyce’s Ulysses such as “the heaventree of stars hung with humid nightblue fruit.”

When I was a boy, I remember warm summer evenings, when my friend and I would capture fireflies at twilight and put them in a Mason jar. We’d lie in the grass and watch, fascinated, as the myriad soft lights would blink on and off. Then we’d roll over on our backs and look up at the sky overhead. Sometimes, if you were lucky, you might spot the flash of a falling star. Shooting stars, my mother called them. If you saw one, you could make a wish and your wish would come true.

At his age this boy still possesses that infinite sense of wonder which will hold him in good stead as he sets out on his journey to Ithaka. Who knows what ports of call he will visit, what adventures might lie in store for him ahead?

At his age, I reflect, the possibilities are limitless.

At mine, less so.

The road home

Sunday sermons disappear,
Receding in the rear-view mirror;
A roadside pond comes into sight—
Earthly eye, celestial seer.

At the fork I ease to right,
Following the morning light
Underneath the piney stands—
Broken branches, dusted white.

Here the narrow road expands,
Tools between tobacco lands;
Tidy houses, neatly nursed,
Lead me to the poets’ strands.

Tennyson, the first traversed,
Stately silent, couplets terse;
Buttles next, serenely steeped;
Next, Walt Whitman’s leaves of verse.

Shelley’s is the final street,
Making poets block complete,
Nestled round Three Corner Lake,
Rimmed with cottages, replete.

Would that I could boast a stake
In Poets’ Corner real estate;
My lot is but to let it lie—
Homeward bound, the road and I.

Copyright 2012 © Brian T. Maurer

Of Cosmic Significance

I spent the greater part of last week delving into quantum electrodynamics, the theory that now forms the basis of our understanding of how the universe operates at the atomic level.

Thanks to solid-state technological advances, through my personal computer I was able to access a number of video lectures on the web—several by Nobel laureates Richard Feynman and Hans Bethe—that enhanced my understanding of quantum mechanics.

Unfortunately, because I lack the mathematical background, I found that I was unable to comprehend both derivations and solutions to complex equations such as the Schrödinger wave functions and the calculations of probability amplitudes.  But then, perhaps even this knowledge might not have served to enlighten me further.  As Feynman pointed out in his 1979 Auckland lectures, “no one understands quantum mechanics.”

According to Feynman, it all comes down to this:  (1) electrons move through space in time, (2) photons move through space and time, (3) electrons and photons collide and separate, absorbing and releasing energy.

Thus far, theoretical physics has managed to integrate quantum mechanics and the atomic weak force. It has yet to meld the nuclear strong force into the equation, and gravitational force is turning out to be elusive as well.

Lately, M-theory, a derivative of string theory, has been proposed as a possible answer to the theory of everything, although we are far from integrating infinity into these equations.

When I made mention of these musings of mine in an e-mail to a good friend, he responded: “My own thoughts about life and the universe have become simpler as I have grown older.  Like the flapping of the butterfly’s wing, an act of love reverberates through the universe in a way that goes beyond the phenomenon of the act itself.”

Electrons, photons, butterfly wings—minute reverberations through a complex universe that extend well beyond our ken.

No act of kindness, no matter how small, is ever insignificant.

Whitman’s verses come to mind:

When I heard the learn’d astronomer,
When the proofs, the figures, were ranged in columns before me,
When I was shown the charts and diagrams, to add, divide, and measure them,
When I sitting heard the astronomer where he lectured with much applause in the lecture-room,
How soon, unaccountable, I became tired and sick,
Till rising and gliding out I wander’d off by myself,
In the mystical moist night-air, and from time to time,
Look’d up in perfect silence at the stars.